Just Keep On Going

Forgiveness.

What the frick does THAT mean??

I've never really understood how I'm supposed to 

feel inside if I practice forgiveness 

- which I don't try to practice anymore by the way.


Last month I was blindsided on the phone by a dear 

friend I've had since I was a small girl.


I suffered through two days of screaming phone calls 

and messages that hit so far below the belt I was 

curled up in a ball with my hands over my head.


Then she went on facebook.


*** 

When I was a young woman and a fellow I was 

dating died in a car crash my mother's advice was, 

"You just keep on going."

In the face of unbearable tragedy 'you just keep on 

going'.


And that is about as close to 'forgiveness' as I'm 

going to get.


I just keep on keeping on.